Yoochun speaks up for the first time about his controversy, marriage, and wish to return

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On July 17, Yoochun reached out to his fans with a sincere message via Instagram. 

His post reads as follows:

"I can't say anything else. I just wanted to tell everyone that I'm really sorry... But I didn't how... Honestly, I didn't have confidence. I'm just very sorry to the point where I just want to die... I'm so sorry. Even if my body gets destroyed day by day and cry, how could it be worse than the pain I gave you... I'm really sorry. I don't like having articles pop up on portal sites and I know I'm really late but I'm sorry...

I recently spoke with Darakbang and I sincerely revealed that I want to stand up again... But I think my wish to start again doesn't depend on my own desires. I'm just really sorry. 

A lot of articles had information that I also heard for the first time but I couldn't do anything about it. I'm just always sorry to you guys. I hope the day will come for me to deliver my apologetic mind. 

I'm also sorry for not letting you guys know earlier about my marriage. It was difficult to talk about it when I haven't even apologized yet. Please understand.

I'm trying hard day by day. You guys probably had a hard time holding on too. I'm so sorry and thankful. I really, sincerely wish I can greet you guys one day. Please give encouragement for me and Hana (Yoochun's fiance). Again, I'm sorry."