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Hyunseung posts an apology for departing from B2ST

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After departing from B2ST back in April of 2016, singer Hyunseung posted an apology, sharing his honest thoughts.

On July 31, the idol wrote a long post via his Instagram page, telling his side of the story to loyal fans.  "Hello, this Jang Hyunseung. It looks like this is going to be a long letter but I really wanted to share my side of the story.

During the past 7 years, I was so loved by many before I left B2ST.  Ever since I was little, I saw various singers and dancers performing on TV and I thought they were so awesome.  Because of that, I was able to debut with B2ST after training for 5 years.

I made my official debut and thought I had achieved my dreams.  However, during my performance, I had this unsettled feeling and began to thirst for something more.  Instead of working as a team with B2ST, I focused harder on trying to please myself and my stubborn ways.  Even after listening to what others said, I went about my own way, which made it difficult to cooperate with my fellow members.

As a result, the wall between the members and I grew thicker as I opted to push them away instead of uniting with them.  Soon, I was unable to control myself as I began to present a negative attitude on stage while attending various public events.  I thought that I had been enjoying my youth up until that point and thought it was cool.

It became a lot harder for me to say that I was sorry and admit my wrongdoings.  However, after leaving the group I was faced with many challenges and realized what I had previously experienced was nothing.  

I was able to let everything go and put down my own selfish pride and became enlightened.  I have come to realize that I caused much pain towards others.  I wanted to express how sorry I was for hurting others because of my rash and selfish decisions. I am sorry."

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. . . . 안녕하세요, 장현승입니다. 긴 글이 될 것 같지만 꼭 전하고 싶었던 제 이야기를 전하고자 합니다. 지난 7년, 탈퇴 전 비스트로 활동하면서 여러분께 너무 과분한 사랑을 받았습니다.어릴 적 TV에서 춤추고 노래하는 가수들이 화려하고 멋있다고 생각했었고, 그때부터 큰 꿈을 가지고 5년의 연습기간을 거쳐 좋은 기회를 통해 멤버들과 함께 비스트로 데뷔할 수 있었습니다. 데뷔를 하고 꿈을 이룬듯 했지만, 활동 당시의 저는 저 나름의 불편함들이 있었고 또 해소되지 않던 음악적 갈증이 있었습니다. 그룹활동과 팀워크를 위한 이해 보다는 제 개인을 고집하는데에 힘을 썼고, 남의 말은 듣고도 곧바로 제 고집과 자존심을 부려 멤버들을 포함한 주변 사람들을 많이 힘들게 했습니다. 그렇게 서서히 빚어진 멤버들과의 벽은 너무 두터워졌고 화합을 선택하는 대신 저는 멀어지는것을 선택 했습니다. 그때 이미 저는 스스로를 통제할 수 있는 능력 마저 상실해 무대를 포함한 모든 공식 석상에서까지 불량한 태도를 보이기에 이르렀고 모든 면으로 참 철없었던 제 모습이 젊음을 즐기는거라 착각까지도 했습니다. 어쩌면 그런것들이 멋이라고까지 생각했습니다.지금 보면 많이 후회스러운 모습들입니다. 고집만큼이나 불필요한 자존심이 쎄서 미안하면 미안하다고 말하는게 어려웠습니다. 하지만 탈퇴 이후, 저에게 많은 일들이 일었고 겪는 과정이 경험이라기엔 많이 힘들었습니다. 그러할때 제 자존심을 내려 놓으니 그동안 치기싫어 버티던 바닥을 칠 수 있었고 , 그렇게 제 나름의 바닥에서 전 깨달음과 자유로움을 얻게 되었습니다. 제 자신은 보지 못하며 남에게 상처들만 남겼습니다. 동시에 저의 경솔하고 이기적인 결정들로 얼마나 큰 상처를 줬는지 이제서야 알게되어 제게 상처 받으신 분들께 정말로 죄송하다는 말씀 꼭 드리고 싶습니다. 죄송합니다.

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