Discussion in 'The Lounge' started by kddicted, Dec 28, 2016.
I'm sorry you feel that way. Can I do anything to help?
No, it's not your fault. It's just me :/
I feel useless. I am doing the best that I can but it feels like I am doing nothing.
Depression is a bitch, takes a lot out of me to get out of bed everyday, I want to be alone (kinda hard as I'm married) and I have to get up anyway as I need to eat as I have work tonight.
And don't get me started on anxiety, that can go die in a ditch for all I care as I have lost friends and family want nothing to do with me as I'm a basket case.
honestly...I want to die, but I don't have the courage to go through with it...
I feel that way a lot but I just gave into my ego and it's like I got a third lease on life. Perhaps not the best advice but hey, I'm still breathing.
with the amount of times I've messed up and don't deserve anything, it's hard to continue on for me
There's multiple paths in life that you can take.
Sometimes that is all you can do- your best even if your best doesn't feel like it is enough
Your mind is a convincing liar, you have done more than enough, sometimes its good to take a break, do you need a break, all that stress about not feeling adequate enough is not good at all.
That is incredibly tough, I'm glad you still manage to do so, there is no greater strength than that. Does your partner know how you've been feeling?
That isn't true, if you were a " basket case" you wouldn't be able to handle all the responsibilities you do have, and yet you do that makes you stronger than most, resilient and tough. Don't demean yourself by calling yourself something which you aren't. No-one deserves to be made out to be something they aren't, and if they don't then you certainly don't.
You're fighting an uphill battle, give yourself credit for that. Those feeling are overwhelming and confining it to being a " basket case" does you no good.
I hope you are getting the help you need and deserve, its an extremely lonely place without anyone by your side
Thinking of you
How did things get so hopeless?
I remembered all my past doings and cannot bear the idea of hurting anyone. I have OCD and it's been a new obsession that I can't stop compulsions for either. It's a mess and I really don't want to go on any further...
I know this is a bit late, but I'm really sorry you feel this way anon. I actually made a similar confession here a while back, which I'm not going to quote, but since then I've learnt the importance of reaching out to others, even when it scares me a lot. I love all of my incredible friends on akp, but all of them are closer to others than they are to me, and I know it's hard but it's important to comes to terms with that. Don't forget that they still care about you. It's kind of like school- you may not have a best friend in your group, or be as close to them, but you have a bond with a range of people. Which is why I reccomend staying close with your current akp friends, of course, but also looking out for similar forum "floaters" and new users. Great ways to meet people are by looking at who's on the taglists of your favourite groups (there is a taglist masterlist you can check), the introductions page (introductions are less common now because of spam threads but they do exist), and just stopping by on someone's profile if you like their aesthetic or something. New users are also great because normally they're looking for new friends- so why don't YOU be their friend? As for your current group, it really sucks that you're being left out. It can be scary, but have you talked to them about it? Maybe they didn't realize they were leaving you out. There's also no reason to stop being friends entirely, but akp is HUGE- there's so many people left for you to meet. And if you ever want to talk to me, my profile is always open, I'd love to be friends with you, whoever you are~
All the same to you mini, my pms are always open <3
How do some users here talk so nonchalantly about mental health and pass judgments that easily? How are do thing function so much in binaries of weakness and strength for them? We are humans, we are allowed to be both things. It is infuriating.
Thank you <3
can anyone come to DMs? I really need to vent about a lot of things (18+ only please)
things are becoming unbearable...
Whats going on?
You've talked to me before
there's a lot of things tbh... ):
Thats okay, you can move it to dms or carry on here
How have you been today?