Anonymous Post #8 i'm scared that i'm going to end up like sulli. we had so much in common. to lose the person i look up to, the person who taught me so much about confidence and how to be myself is heartbreaking. it has pitted me into another depressive episode. now, I've been having these for a while, but i just got out of a major one and i feel like another one is on its way. the last time i had an episode like this, i almost killed myself. i feel almost as if i should have. now, i know that sounds over-dramatic, but i feel it would've been a better option. i loved her. not in a weird, romantic way. like she was an older sister to me, even though i didn't know her. she always had good advice for me and i could see her and base what i was going to do off of her past experiences. i thought she was invincible. but i guess not. i wish she could hear me. i wish she would just say that this is a nightmare. i wish she would come back. please wake me up from this nightmare. thank you sulli.