Discussion in 'The Lounge' started by kddicted, Dec 28, 2016.
this is eating me up.
i dont think i can do this shit anymore
I know it's supposed to be anonymous, but before I go, just wanted to say Thank you
i cant get the vision of sulli hanging by her neck out of my head and its literally driving me insane. why is it like i can feel her cold body and see everything... what she saw. what first responders saw...no pictures were even fucking released im going crazy.i cant even breathe rn. this is the worst ive felt in a long time and i cant take it wtf
Don't lose hope.
Remember the moments you felt happy/ when Sulli was at her happiest. These moments are what we treasure / strive to have more of.
You'll get through this rough patch, even if you don't want to believe it.
Take time out for yourself. Read. Write. Heck, watch nct on crack vids. These emotions are raw atm but once you are ready, you'll be able to tackle them. Work with your mind, not against it.
i want to take time for myself, but i cant
Please don't let that be your lasting image of her.
Do something that will make you happy.
If the emotions are too overwhelming, I would personally stay away from kpop for a few days and hang out with family/friends. Force yourself if you have too.
im really scared. what is happening????
This is gunna sound so basic. But have you written these feelings down? Collecting your thoughts and writing them down (esp before you sleep) helps the mind relax and takes away some of the burden.
I am gunna PM you if you don't mind?
Please try to eat healthy and make sure you eat enough.
If you have a problem or mental block when it comes to eating, please see a professional.
Please keep healthy.
Do whatever you need to do to help grieve.
Talk to people and fellow fans.
This situation completely sucks an there's no easy way to fix it or stop the hurt.
Please make sure to treat yourself right during this time and allow yourself to grieve however you need to.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
This is very true. I'm so sorry for what you go thtough/have been through.
Anonymous Post #6
I'm having struggles once again, suicidal thoughts are slowly coming back, I'd say I'm doing a great job stopping them but... Idk, it's tiring, I just feel like giving up once and for all. I know there's people that loves me, but the pain I'm going through is just too much to handle... I feel the necessity to resign, to give back my life to whatever being/beings created it. I'm fighting, yes I am, but each day my resistance keeps decreasing. I try my best, I really do, but if just quite broken at this point.
I'm so sorry to hear you're suffering like this. Please try to speak to someone about it, unfortunately shoving it aside or trying to distract yourself won't work on things like this, it needs to be addressed.
Do you have a close family member you can confide in or maybe a visit to your GP or a counsellor/therapist if you can?
I highly doubt that. We judge ourselves too harshly, but I am sure you are a wonderful person.
Please don't die. I know it seems dark and hard now, but it gets better.
Try to find little things to look forward to and set little goals for yourself to achieve the one thing you want, whether it be a dream job, your own house, an overseas trip or something.
It may not seem like it now, but you hae a life waiting for you.
Is there any way you can talk to a dr or professional soon? Maybe a MH helpline in your country to talk to a professional?
That sounds absolutely horrific.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry to hear this. Do you have a close friend or family member you can talk to?
Can you go see your GP and talk to them about it?
I'm glad you're fighting and your trying, but sometimes this battle is not one we can fight alone and need some back up on our team.
I hope you see someone soon. We're here for you.
I often turn to food too which isn't really good, but I guess there are worst things heh....... just something we gotta work on..
that's awful I'm so sorry... it's brave of your to speak like this, I think it's important too
please have a healthy meal as soon as possible, if you feel you can't please talk to someone..
let it out, talk to a friend, write it all down, whatever works for you, that would be good and healthy
I hope you can try and express this, talk to someone trustworthy the best way you can..
no way, I don't believe that, everyone has good things about them
everything can change, please don't give up
keep pushing on but reach out for help, please if you can.. please don't endure alone
try not to think that way, try to remember the happy and smiling her
I hope there's someone you can talk to, I hope there is help you can get, please stay strong <3
Anonymous post #7
i feel so worthless & undeserving of love or affection.
Anonymous post #8
I'm not okay. I'm taking Sulli's death extremely hard. I loved the person she was because she was herself in a society that didn't appreciate individualism and people being different. Something about her resonated with me. Now she's gone. My heart's broken because one of the few people that existed, was open about her struggles, and still tried to smile-- someone who gave me hope-- is no longer here. Her death is hurting me at a time when my mom's struggling with cancer, my fiance left me... I'm so broken right now. I'm older than Sulli, so it seems silly to be crushed over the passing of someone younger that I didn't know, but there was just something about her. I'm just... so sad. There are no words. I'm not okay.
I know how this feels, but trust me, you are not worthless and you are deserving of love and affection, and it will happen for you. Keep strong. <3
I'm so sorry to hear this, you're going through a lot and it's okay to be affected by Sulli's death, even if you didn't know her personally.
Allow yourself to grieve however you need to. I'm sorry I can't offer much more help but my condolences. I'm sorry for your loss and everything you've been going through. We're here for you if you need us.
Im not sure if I should post this because I might sound selfish for being happy
my boyfriend knew that I was depressed about what happened so he canceled work and he took me on a surprise date with my favorite foods and then he sang these songs for me and For a moment I felt Happy.
Both of these songs are about rather being sad be beautiful cause you mean the world to someone and I wish that someone told her the same thing before she passed and I want to tell you who ever is reading this that you’re loved and your beautiful and colorful and that you give color to someone’s life
Some of you might know that I tried to take my own life a few months ago and I’ve been getting therapy but it came all crashing down when I heard the news and I don’t know if I will truly be happy again but for now I am gonna enjoy the sweetness of my date even though I don’t deserve it I wish that sulli got it instead