I like this tought, you thingking about your kids and their future. Keep this thought even when it becomes really really difficult (again). I'm a kid (19yo) myself and I couldn't live without my mom. I know it's probably not my place to say this because I don't know you and it's kinda strange. But I'm proud you think that way. I'm sorry if I'm overstepping my boundaries! I wish you all the luck in the world to stay strong!!