Rest In Peace to both of you. it hurts so much. The thoughts I had in January are coming back. Rest In Peace. I’m sorry jonghyun, for trying to join you back in January. Now that I look back there are many things that I want to do. I want to be happy. I’m sorry sulli. I’m sorry for not defending you enough. I hope that you are happy with jonghyun and the other girls of ladies code. Maybe you’ll meet my friend up there. He was a big fan of you and taeyeon. He left me too soon, but maybe you’ll get to see him. All 3 of you were talented musicians and I promise that I will listen to the music you guys left behind and cherish the memories I have. I’m so sick of putting on a mask both online and real life, and lately ive been overworking myself, keeping myself busy to stop stupid thoughts I have. It’s 5:30 am, just finishing painting and I have to go work tomorrow so I’ll be sleeping, dreaming of you.